Well, if you didn’t already know … I have my own business now. I stay really busy and don’t blog here anymore, who blogs anymore? Facebook killed the blog, you know? So, anyhoo… here is my business web page… check it out: www.kimberlyingram.com
yeah, i don’t post so much on here anymore. having a new baby, lupus, fibromyalgia, starting a business, and being generally overloaded in every other area of my life have caused my writing and blogging to go on the back burner. my baby boy is my life and my top priority now, and i don’t know what i ever did or would do now without him. then of course maintaining a marriage and keeping that relationship happy and healthy take alot of time as well… but i am still here, and maybe someday i will be posting again… if i ever get time to sit down and write anything!
I am now officially obsessed with watching Molly, the most famous owl in the world. Molly and her husband, McGee, have eggs that she is sitting on. She is so beautiful and this is so amazing. I am so glad that Carlos, the owl box owner, decided to do this. It is amazing! You really have to check it out for yourself. Just be sure to turn off the chat because people are idiots beyond freaking belief!
Molly says to McGee, “Do you ever get that weird feeling of being watched?”
I got a box of chocolates from my aunt for Valentines day and I hid it.
I decided I would reward myself with one piece each time my husband pissed me off and I remained calm and acted nice.
It has been a week now. All of the candy is gone and I am probably 5 lbs heavier, but what wonders chocolate can work on a marriage.
I am thinking I may need to order a crate of these babies.
Sometimes I want to feel sexy so I put on a thong, but then I just feel like a fat girl in a thong.
every time i go to sleep for the past couple of months i have had some sort of variation of the same dream, i can’t find my car. it has either been stolen, towed, is mysteriously missing, or i can’t remember where i parked it. i have been having this same dream so often and waking up feeling so upset by it that it is quite concerning. so, i decided to do some self-analysis and then some further research on it and my findings turned out being very interesting.
i personally thought maybe these dreams were coming from feelings i am having of being trapped, in my current situation and in the recent past since i was in the hospital for so long. i have been unable to get out and go anywhere for at least nine months now, never even being able to even so much drive my car or walk outside around the block. until recently i had high hopes that this would change soon. i imagined taking kale shopping or out to explore and do some of my photography like i used to love doing, but those dreams have pretty well been crushed by finding out i have lupus.
i don’t see any of that being possible now because i am at the point it hurts just holding my son and i am unable to carry him in his carrier at all. i am pretty well on my own and stuck here at home all alone since my husband works all the time and doesn’t have time to take us out and our son is still so little i am not comfortable leaving him with anyone. the only real support system i have through this and everything else recently are my parents, and even then they are miles away and i still feel like no one truly understands all i am going through. all of this just leaves me feeling lost, alone, scared and powerless; the same feelings i have in the dreams.
my research has led me to belive this self-analysis and also discover more reasons that i could be dreaming these dreams. i found that this dream symbol is an indication of your dependence and degree of control you have on your life or the direction you are going in your life. to dream that you car has been stolen, indicates that you are being stripped of your identity. this can possibly relate to losing your job, a failed relationship, or some situation which has played a significant role in your identity and who you are as a person.
now it all makes much more sense. i don’t know what i can do about changing the situation or stopping the dreams, but at least i have a more complete understanding if it all so it is not quite as terrifying anymore. hey, you learn something new every day!